back to square one.kill me,PLEASE?! [UNBREAK MY HEART!]

alrite,today was okay.but quite tiring to act like evrything was like it was last year.cus it REALLY ISNT.apart frm "travelling back in time" the rest was reality.the painful parts.the parts tat i'd hope would go away if i acted like i was expected to.expectations,expectations.sigh.watever.ugh.you know evrytime i say tat to act like i don care,it comes back n slaps me in the face.back fires.hello?it wasnt supposed to hurt me?well,i guess no matter how i try to provoke yo[u],to see if i still exist,it nv works.i jus want yo[u] to feel how bad it hurts.jus ONCE!its all i ask.all ive ever done is BEG.beg for things to go okay.for the journey to never end.but i guess i was in a dream.feel stupid.maybe tats jus it.ugh.things tat finally matter,ALWAYS get taken away!ppl NEVER treasure love when they're supposed to.they're always looking for smth better.never satisfied!yo[u]'ll NEVER know wat i went thru.never bothered to share the pain.never tried to make it easier after all i went thru.not saying no one else goes thru it as bad as i did but pls la?enough is enough?!don yo[u] agree.all i want is to get this fucking weight of my shoulders!walking ard every friggin' day is fucking irritating.pulls you down.steps on ur friggin' self-esteem like no one's business?!like hello?im human.ugh.kill me?PRETTY PLEASE?!all i want is peace and someone.is tat TOO MUCH to friggin' ask?!this sucks.its NO USE!!!!!!!!!cheers.bye.this is onli screwing me up.bye.
"wat if yo[u] were the love of my life?"



[even when you feel like you don belong,
even when you fall and it all goes wrong,
know that im with you,
with you all the time.
say a lil prayer for the restless heart,
wish you'll never ever drift apart.
know that im with you,
with you all the time.]-broken